Sunday, May 8, 2011

My Nursing Prayer



Make me an instrument of thy peace, Lord.

Where there is hatred, let me sow love.
Where there is injury, pardon.
Where there is doubt, let there be faith.
Where there is despair, let there be hope.
Where there is darkness, let there be light
Where there is sadness, let there be joy.

Oh Divine Master, grant that I may not so much seek to be consoled as to be understood as to be loved as to love. It is in giving that we recieve and in pardoning that we are pardoned. And it is in dying that we are born to eternal life.

Make me an instrument of thy peace, Lord. Of thy peace.

Love, Sheri

(from the song by John Rutter and the prayer penned by St. Francis of Assisi, both of which inspire me, calm me, give me direction and comfort me)

Mothers Day

Were all of the four Mothers Days since Joseph died hard for me? I can't remember, which is a little disconcerting. I have been awash in sadness the last few days, with tears easy on the edge of my eyelids and emotions running helter skelter through my attempts to study for finals, which happen tomorrow. I cannot begin to communicate how desperately glad I am that the semester is over, which is kind of funny. I loved my instructors this semester and half of our material was so very very interesting to me. The other half just scared me and made me tense (pediatrics). I am pretty sure I am not cut out to be a pediatric nurse.

Summer plans include doing some marketing for a local surgeon's office who I have a wonderful relationship with, working my externship at the hospital and spending as much time as possible with my boys. We have our season passes to Six Flags and I want to yank them out of school to have a day of fun one day late in May, before school is officially out and while the crowds will be low. There are some new roller coasters they are dying to get on and thus far on the weekends we have managed to get out there the lines have been just awful.

Today Stewart and the boys are taking me out to lunch. I am hoping we go play games together afterward and we spend some quality time together. Even though final exams are tomorrow I set this day aside to be with them. I will review some this morning, but my heart is with them and I know I would be more resentful than focused if I missed today due to studying.

My Mom and I generally set a day near Mothers Day aside to spend the whole day together. We go shopping, get lunch, enjoy a cocktail or two, see a chick flick and in general just hang out and enjoy being together. A couple of times we have gone to the spa even, though probably not this year. She is going to take off either Wednesday or Thursday so that we can spend the day together and I am really looking forward to that girl time with her as well. One of the hardest things about school that I did not anticipate very well was how nursing school would affect my relationships. Thankfully I am pretty darn loved. My peeps are waiting for and rooting for me.

I wish all the Moms out there a wonderful Mothers Day. It is a day for our families to appreciate us. Take a moment, though, to think about them and really savor them too, individually and as a whole. Family is a blessing. Happy Mothers Day!